Welcome back to my blog, if this is your first time reading my blog Thank you for joining me. But a lot of things are going to change. I’m in a big debate If I want to change my blogs name to just carmelitamiddleton.com or keep mama carm blogs. It’s a hard one because I’ve branded my blog with this name for over 4 years now. Here’s the thing, I’m changing sooo much as a person I want my time and efforts to reflect that as well.

Mama carm blogs served me well but truthfully I think I’m ready to part ways and just haven’t made the decision yet. Some of you who have been here since the beginning might be sad and I promise you my blogs will never leave. But I want to start building a community that fits more of my personality and something that will mature with me. It’s going to be hard to leave the name mama carm blogs behind but when I officially do I hope you stick around because there’s so much in store for me I just know it.

This year I’ve adventured out and started “The Middleton Talk” podcast on my YouTube channel. It’s been a different experience to say the lease but I’m excited to see where it takes me. Yes I totally agree with you,

Carmelita you have a lot going in.

I like to stay busy, I like to constantly have something to do. My ideas are bright and every day I’m learning just how to make them happen. I’m no where near where I want to be. But I’m not where I use to be last year. and isn’t that what’s so important? I’m making a name for myself, I’m pushing my abilities to the max and I’m trying to create a life I want my kids to be proud of.

I push myself so hard because I always feel like I’m failing. I always feel as if what I’m doing isn’t good enough or that no one cares to support me which I know is not true. It’s how anxiety works! The little voices in your head start to create this awful narrative that you start to listen to. Where it’s , your business won’t ever be big. No one will read your blogs, no one will listen to your podcast or watch your YouTube videos. The sad truth is I start to listen to these thoughts and believe them. I imagine anxiety like a broken door, to the eye it’s locked, closed and never to be opened. But to the world it’s a broken door, never shut correctly and was never locked in the first place.

Why is that?

Why do we create awful narratives in our minds and assume we can’t open doors that we are meant to travel through?

If you have a broken door, it’s not locked. In fact it’s never been locked. I can’t give you remedy’s on how to help your anxiety because truthfully it’s a battle I’m still battling. Taking it one day at a time, finding the moments in life where I can truly see my success. Trying so hard to believe that people are actually supporting me and that the awful story in my head isn’t even close to being true.

Thank you for continuing to read my blogs, catch up on the words I write and truly being a supporter. It’s not easy to write about your life and it’s not easy to decide what you want to keep private. It’s a work balance for sure And with so many new changes coming Im truly excited to see how I transform.

Thanks for reading!

-Carmelita Middleton