Ever since I was in second grade I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wanted to be a veterinarian because all I cared about was animals. I wanted to work with horses specifically and build my career.

2018 I had a baby went through the birthing process, had a phenomenal nurse who change my mind completely. In this stage of life, I now have thoughts of what if. What if, I want to be a labor and delivery nurse. What if, I want to further my career into becoming a doula.

Doula: a woman who is trained to assist another woman during childbirth and who may provide support to the family after the baby is born.

But then I had thoughts of becoming a midwife so I can experience the whole situation and deliver babies.

Midwife: A person (typically a woman) trained to assist women in childbirth.

As I’ve signed up for college classes the thought of what I want to do spirals through my head. When I was in second grade I already had my life all planned out. Or so I thought, during my senior year I had an internship at an equine clinic. I can safely say that was the worst experience I’ve ever had. Not only was I pregnant but when I felt sick I couldn’t sit down. Or they would think I was “slacking off”. For multiple grade periods I was there they would give me bad grades cause I was too “slow”. By the end of the year, they finally found out I was pregnant and In my third trimester. They knew I was pregnant but didn’t know how far along I was. Best believe I got a 100 for my last month being there because they finally understood why I had to pee so much.

I know I shouldn’t let a first-time experience change my mind and outlook on being an equine vet. But I’m actually glad it did, I have a new interest in what I want to do. I now not only have myself to think about I have P who also depends on my career choice.

I personally don’t want to be a stay at home mom for the rest of my life. I would like to be a stay at home mom till P is old enough to go to school. I do plan on having more kids in the future but not at this point in time. My career choice may not be clear right at this moment but I know soon enough it will be obvious. If you’re in the same situation as I am don’t stress yourself out. This is a tough choice to make. This career might be the only one you take on for the rest of your life.