The hardship

33 weeks and best believe the count down is on! Our princess p is not to far away, but let’s get down to the real action. 11:30 pm hit and so did the pain. Labor pains?!?? No ma’am (or sir) although it will come around! 12:45 pm: will this pain ever end it’s been over a hour. Questions filled my head as my back pain upraised and nothing I seemed to do was helping.

Lay on your left side, drink 8-10 glasses of water when you feel pain, elevate your feet above your heart so you don’t start swelling. All of these I HAD DONE! Every google article I was reading didn’t seem to help, finally it was around 1 in the morning and if anyone knows me I’m pooped around 9:30. So this 1 am adventure I was having just wasn’t having me.

Another doctors appointment where I sit in the waiting room surrounded by all walks of life pregnant woman except these all walks of life are 10 years older than me. We’re all here for the same reason to make sure our beautiful babies are healthy and right on track. This particular appointment wasn’t schedule but indeed a walk in due to the pain I was encountering. Another 15 minutes on the monitor where they check her heart rate and to see if I was having contractions that the doctor needed to worry about (again). 15 minutes passed and my doctor finally comes in, “no contractions” Relief arose across my body and I couldn’t be happier that princess p wasn’t coming yet. But the question is what was this pain caused by? And how can I help it since during pregnancy you can’t take anything!

A kidney infection..did I hear him correctly or did I just make up some words to come out of his mouth🧐. How can I get that?? Can it harm me or my baby? Questions, on questions, on questions. For some pregnant woman infections are super easy to get. (Your welcome for informing you about some things in pregnancy people don’t want to talk about) for me I’m anemic it’s easier to get sick, get infections, the whole medical book I guess. But thankfully God has a plan cause I always catch everything before it gets serious.

Now I feel like I’m a drug dealer, dealing 5 pills a day and having to drink more cranberry juice than I ever have in 1 day is taking a toll on my body. Not to mention the side effects are nausea and dizziness! Might as well just have a welcome to the 1st trimester sticker pasted on the bottle. I don’t know about you but I can’t open child lock caps just something about having to many James Avery rings makes it harder to open anything. The taste of these capsules are disgusting!!! It’s like they made these pills for seals in sea world who eat raw fish.

My pregnancy hasn’t been all sunshine and rainbows and you may one day get to experience pregnancy too and it could end up completely different from mine. The point is all the pain and discomfort that had been brought to me is just the beginning of mother hood! If it was easy everyone would do it. Becoming a mother isn’t about the fun times you created while creating your little one (I’m talking about sex if you didn’t get what I meant). It’s based on the sacrifices and the pain,sweat and tears you encountered. My daughter will grow up to know that even though I was a teen mom she had everything she needed.

As every night before I eventually fall asleep I have sever back pains and I feel like my spine is gonna break into a million pieces. I know that I’m doing this for my daughter, and my mom went through discomfort just for me. I can’t wait to see our little princess P but just a few more weeks till we get to kiss her sweet face! 💛

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